A lot of the children I worked with previously had modafinal supplements and trouble sleeping but until I read this thread I never made the connection to my own problems with sleep.
If I am not exhausted when I go to bed I will lie awake for hours with my mind spinning through all sorts of things so I tend to keep myself up until I am almost falling asleep in my chair to avoid that. As a result I tend to be up untill 4 or 5 most nights when I am not working the next day.
I also use audiobooks to help me sleep and have done since I was a young child. As long as it is quiet enough not to wake me up but not too quiet that I can't hear it (as then it keeps me awake as my brain tries to make out the words I can't hear) an audiobook is pretty much mandatory for me at this point to get to sleep.
I have issues with sleep. But it tends to be sleeping at night.
I have intense delusions at night time, and vivid nightmares a lot. almost most nights. I have night terrors.
The thing is... I remember everything that happened in the dream. Yet you read up on night terrors and they say 'feeling of intense fear/screaming/running whilst still asleep, but forget dreams instantly' -- what are they talking about? :/ I remember everything.
My latest one was so very realistic and terrifying... everythng in the dream was trying to kill me- mostly inanimate objects like chairs, rugs, doors, the microwave. I woke up and for about 2 hours couldn't sleep because I truly believed the chair or beanbag was going to suffocate and kill me.
I doubt mine is autism-related though
That's interesting, I used to (and still do sometimes) get similar experiences. Are yours classic night terrors?
I used to think I suffered from night terrors but looking into it what I get is the similar but distinct problem of sleep paralysis, where you are unable to move but aware of the room just after falling asleep (or before waking). Then I sense a malevolent presence in the room that moves towards me, it manifests as a sort of crawling blackness that slides towards me.
It always occurs at times of high stress and sleep deprivation for me.