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An Autism/Aspergers alert card for you to carry around. The idea is that if you get a bit overwhelmed or you aren't able to get your point across etc, when you're out and about in public, you can hand this card over and it will just go some way to explain why you're flapping and struggling to breathe! It's also very useful from a safety and security point of view for places like airports/train stations and big cities, and to show to police etc.
As you can see, it's got the WillowHope colour scheme etc, so it's not dull. I tried to make it a bit more 'funky' etc. than the usual ones.
The card is the size and thickness of a credit/debit card, made entirely from plastic, with a gloss finish, so will be durable and easy to store in your purse/wallet or even in an ID card lanyard.
"I have an Autistic Spectrum Disorder
Please read the back of this card...
...thank you, I really appreciate it!"
"Please take the time to understand that...
I might struggle to tell you what I need because I can become easily overwhelmed in a social or public environment.
It might seem like I am acting strange but the movements I make are probably just part of me trying to cope and stay calm.
I don't like to be touched, most of all unexpectedly, so whilst it might be your reaction to help calm me down, it will likely make things worse.
I am a unique human being and deserve the respect you show everyone else.
Also...don’t take advantage of me. I’m not stupid, I’m just anxious."
I had a really awful meltdown a few days ago - I think it was on Wednesday. My day really started to suck all of a sudden, and when I got back to my room, I posted about it in the ranting section of another autism/Asperger forum I'm a part of, and then the meltdown started. I started rocking back and forth, slowly at first, then faster and faster. Then I started crying and sobbing uncontrollably...I just couldn't stop. I also wasn't getting enough air, and was making these peculiar "barking" gasping noises like "Wuh, wuh, wuh wuh..." Rather the way a zebra sounds. My arms and hands also felt tingly, numb and vibrate-y, as well as my face and the back of my head. This is also really embarrassing, but I was so desperate to get some oxygen, I started sucking my thumb a little bit, and it helped a little bit....I actually felt a little bit comforted, and I was able to slow down my breathing to where I could take semi-decent breaths. Then I stopped right away, since I don't want it to become a habit...I haven't sucked my thumb in years, and I never will again, I promise. I also remember really wanting someone to be there to comfort me and tell me that I was okay, and that everything would be okay....but at the same time, I was also grateful no one was there to see me like that. I work so hard to at least appear normal to everyone, even to my own family....I don't want to be sent back to a place that's anything like Sarah's Smile in Pennsylvania again. My roommate was at her house an hour away when all this happened, which I was happy about....I probably would have scared her to death. All I had then were my stuffed animals. I really love them a lot; they're like my only friends....they're the only ones that have never hurt me, left me, betrayed me or disappointed me in any way. I'll probably always be alone and only have them for company ever. Everyone I like and feel safe with always goes away eventually. I've also been thinking about killing myself a lot....I'm almost done with college, but I have this math-related learning disability and I'll never pass the class I'm in now, and going to the tutoring center makes me panic....besides, if I'm not good at math I'll probably never get a good job. If I'd had a gun in my room on Wednesday I'd probably have just blown myself away that very night. I just don't see a future for myself. I even bought a little notebook for me to write ideas about killing myself in, and all the reasons why I should do it - and let me tell you, there's a lot...I've just been too lazy to write everything down yet. Thank you for reading this, for those of you who have. I feel really safe here on Asperclick...everyone's so nice.
I've been feeling really lonely lately. I lost a friend a few years ago because apparently I overshared some of my problems to them and they could not handle it. I don't go out with my other friends that much because I'm afraid of oversharing things about what I'm going through and pushing them away or having them think less of me. I mostly stay inside my house all the time because I'm afraid of being a burden to my friends. I've been making up imaginary friends and imagining I'm hanging out with them instead of my real life friends because I know my imaginary friends won't judge me or leave me. It's not the same, however, and it sometimes gets depressing not being able to talk to my real friends. How do I learn to trust people again, and more importantly, how do I learn when I'm oversharing things about stuff they don't want to hear?
If you had a clone of yourself, that was identical in every way from this point on, how would you two get along, what would you do? What would you have to learn about yourself? is there something you've always wanted but couldnt that you then would? Would you feel more alone, or less than ever?
First off ill say that I'm not religious, However I do find aspects of spirituality interesting historically, psychiatrically, philosophically and conceptually. Concepts such as spirits and the soul have helped human beings communicate ideas beyond physical and scientific understanding for millennia. They are great literary and communicative devices for filling in gaps in our knowledge. What I am about to write is fanciful and emotionally based. I wish I could summon someone spiritually. When I'm out alone e.g. Walking in the forest with my dog or something, I wish I could summon the spirit of someone I know. This is usually someone still alive and someone I know. If it was otherwise it would require too much imagination and effort to keep up. It would also be more stupid imo as the basis is more in pure imagination and not based on fact or shared memories with that person. I know someone will say 'why don't you just phone them', well yes I could do that if I wanted to. It's not the same as feeling their presence with you though. One reason I like to think about all this, is I like to think my aspire awkwardness wouldn't exist with the person in who is with me in spirit. In analysing this silly idea, I think maybe a reason for it is control. I want to switch people on and off. Summon and dispel. I don't want them to leave or stay. I know if such a control existed for me I wouldn't be happy anyway, it's more about comfort....and control. Who would you like to summon and dispel when you are alone? Sorry if this is badly written, it's 5am and I haven't slept again.